Finally a clear view. Thank you my Faithful God. "Every promise kept. Every need You met. All I am, and all I'll ever be is all because You loved faithfully."
If you don't think God loves faithfully, you don't have a clear spiritual view. You're looking at love through your eyes, and what you think it should be. Love is unconditional. For better for worse, in sickness and in health. Till death do us part, so help me God. Why do you think our vows before God say: "so help me God" He knew we would need all the help we could get to love unconditionally. So thankful God held onto me and my marriage, as I held onto Him with everything in me. Blessed to have been able to feel the living God walk with me in times where I wanted to give up. My husband is right when he told me we were even.
Only God knows how much I wanted a clear view on my husband's last words to me, when I said, "Michael you blessed my life." He said, "no you blessed mine, we're even." I never fully understood his statement. But now I have a clear view that came from God's living word.
Luke 23: 39-43, In my reading about the thief on the cross when he was dying, he asked Jesus, "remember me when You enter Your Kingdom." He had more faith, and more spiritual insight, than His followers who spent much quality time with Him. They lost hope and their dreams were being shattered right in front of their eyes as Jesus hung there dying. They thought Jesus came to earth to save the kingdom here. Much like my dreams were being shattering right in front of my eyes. I was watching my husbands life fade away from here. I wasn't going to share all the things we still wanted to do together. Places we wanted to go. But I believe Michael was already encountering heaven, much like the thief, he had spiritual insight.
I never gave up hope that if it was God's will, He could still heal him even though it looked like it was close to the end. Michael always knew how much I loved Jesus and that the Kingdom of heaven was in me here on earth. But for him, he was about to enter the Kingdom of heaven forever. He knows how much I sacrificed my own happiness in our marriage in hopes that he would surrender his life to Christ so he could be free from all his addictions.
So when I really think about it, my dreams aren't shattered at all. They came true. "We're even." He has the Kingdom now and forever and so will I. I will praise my God the rest of my life.
Much love in Him
Kim D
So beautiful and enlightening. I love "we are even" Bless you my friend. I miss our talks.
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