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Isaiah 43: 18-19 “Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland."
This year has been a rough one for me. Hip replacement, knee replacement, and then in the hospital for 5 days with abscess on my intestines. I did come to the point where I questioned God, why, how long? I've felt discouraged and very tired and I hated it. But the great thing about not feeling guilty about that was, you read of others in the bible who did too. It doesn't mean you don't love Him, or trust Him, or hope in Him. In fact, with every question you're just getting closer to Him as He answers through His Word. Many get mad at God and turn away from Him in trials. Where does that get you? Only in deeper despair. The more you seek Him in His word, the more you find Him.
I can honestly say that being in challenges like this really got me to see that I didn't need all the answers to my questions. I didn't need to be relieved of the pain, even though I wanted to and still do. I have certainly learned, and still learning that all I really need is to be near Him. To read of His promises to me and to hope in them. That in His time, I will see His clear answer for me.
I can see He's doing a new thing in me. I'm more and more in place of rest and acceptance. I may not like walking with a cane, but i'm walking. Hoping for that day I may be able to put it down. To be in my Spirit where He's taken me through this challenge I find I've got my joy back. I know He sees me. I know He hears my every prayer. So even in my OK, I just want to be near Him. He makes a way in the wilderness and beautiful streams in the wasteland. I now see it.
He is so good and worthy of all our praise.
Kim D .mvdevotional.blogspot.com