Healing truly doesn’t come from the explained, but when the hurt meets the HEALER, when Glory meets your suffering, is the only way to explain it.
When the “hurt and the Healer” collide, is when you begin to feel your heart and hopes come alive, even though a part of you has died.
Have you ever experienced hurt so deep you could hardly breathe? Sometimes, that’s right where God wants us. He tells us, “Be still and know that I AM GOD.” (Psalm 46:10). It is VERY hard to be still when you are in fear, and deep despair. Maybe it’s a loss of a loved one, or a horrible illness and you are watching a love one suffer. Maybe it’s a painful divorce, or a rebellious son or daughter.
In my case it was a painful year of watching my husband battle cancer. In and out of the hospital, looking like things were getting worse instead of better, as the year went on. Feeling like a part of me was dying, because I just didn’t know the end.
I remember crying so many times on my way home from the hospital trips I could hardly see. I didn’t want to leave him, but I had to go to work each day. So for a long while, which seemed like forever to me, it was nothing but hospital and work each day. My husband had some really scary complications with infections, feeding tubes not working right, blood transfusions, and rapid weight loss, due to not being able to eat solid food for a while.
I remember trying to hold on to many promises of God’s word. But sometimes I was so mad, His word just became words to me. I was losing hope. The hurt of watching him this way was taking me down. Never once did I hear my husband complain.
I cried out to God many times with questions, and then my prayers got very simple, but they came right from my BELIEVING HEART! Right where I believe God wanted me to be all the time. I prayed, “Your Kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. You hold it all God, You know the end of all of this, so I have to trust You, no matter what the end is.”
Well that’s when He began to take my heart and breath it back to life with hope and, “[Confidence] I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” (Psalm 27:13-14). Now I am going to add what He said in my heart, “don’t listen to the doctors or see things as you do. I AM THE HEALER. I have this, the doctors, and you in my control, watch and see.”
Well I saw God's goodness, He broke my fear, took my tears, and awoke my heart to His glory right where I was at.
No matter what you’re going through, it’s AMAZING what God can do, when you let your hurt collide with the HEALER. , “Therefore we do not lose heart... we are being renewed day by day... fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen...”
We will go through sorrow and pain as long as we are here. But I can tell you from experience, and from others who share their stories, that HE IS your LIFELINE... The lifter of your head, the air that you can breathe when you can’t seem to breathe in, because Jesus tells us, “I am with you ALWAYS.” (Matthew 28: 20).
That is enough for my heart and soul to live on.
Thank you all for your prayers for my husband’s healing. We received our miracle. 3 years cancer free.
The grace of God be with you always
Kim
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