Gladys Knight.. The best thing that ever happened to me

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I love the lyrics of this song.  Most of the lyrics I associate with God. He is the author of my story. Truly, the best thing that ever happened to me. He knew every detail of my life that He could trust me with. Even the painful ones that He would get me through for His purpose, and someone else's blessing. 

 Sitting in my prayer room and just being still. Looking around the room of pictures of my family. Some who have gone to be with the Lord.  I can't help but give thanks to God for this time,  and place, and family, that He has blessed me with. 

I believe we all can say that we've had our share of life's ups and downs. I know I have. But between each line of pain and glory, Jesus was there. Waiting for me to let Him lead. 

I know my mom had many many reasons to leave my dad, but she didn't. She was such an example to me. I had many reasons to leave my marriage, but I didn't.  I'm sure many of us have reasons to leave a marriage. Personally for me and my story, God clearly spoke to me to stay. Was it hard, yes. But it wasn't only a blessing to me, it was also a blessing to my husband.

 There are many lessons to learn in painful situations. But the greatest blessing to me was, how close I got to the heart of God and His unconditional love and compassion for others.  For me, with my marriage, when my heart and compassion aligned with Christ, that's when everything changed for me. My prayer life changed.  Instead of praying,  "God change him". I began praying, "God change me."  I remember telling God,  "If it is your will to stay, then teach me how to love the way you do."  Well,  I guess God really loved that prayer. Because He answered it instantly.

  Before the Lord took my husband home from a battle with cancer,  I will never forget the last words he spoke to me. Only I didn't know I wouldn't see him again after that night in the hospital. Because the nurse told me, "everything is fine with his vitals come back in the morning."  I held his hand before leaving and said, " I just want you to know, you blessed my life." He said, "no you blessed mine, were even." 

 I don't know what your painful situation is.  Everyone's story is different. But talk to God and ask him what his will is. Pray for wisdom.  It's really not about your comfort and happiness. It's about  His purpose and use of your life for Him.  You will be blessed. But I can guarantee, it's mostly for the other person. I know that my mom can tell you the same thing. Because just like people told me to leave. I told my mom to leave as well.  It's only normal to want to see people happy. But God has other intentions.  If you are struggling in this area. I pray that God gives you clear direction. Remember, confusion is not from God. Wait on Him, until it is consistent and clear.  And of course, that your life isn't in danger. 

Alot of Christians take this scripture, and not reading it in full. Romans 8:26-28.  There's no mistaking, our lives are for God's will, and for His purpose. 

For Your glory Lord 

Kim D