Saturday, October 20, 2012

Change My Life - Ashes Remain


Have you ever said, "If only they would see that they need to change, things would be a lot better between us." Or, "I don't know how much more I can take, if things don't change." I'm sure you could relate to one of these statements, or make up one of your own about change, but change is a personal choice, and believe it or not, it begins INSIDE YOU.

This is a personal journey with Jesus for all of us who want it, and who want to change. There are many stories I could share about changes I thought should have been in other people, but God showed me differently...

I remember always praying, "Oh God, please change my husband!" I know the bible tells us to make our request known and they will be answered, but this was the wrong way to request a change for my personal happiness. It took me a lot longer than I would have liked it to, to finally understand, God doesn't change the other person, and He's not my personal Genie! Change is a personal choice, and He could only help me to change to have happiness I longed for, no matter what the circumstances were in my life. What a journey this has been in my life, in many areas, but WELL WORTH IT! It is an ongoing process, but you get to see so much more of Jesus, and so does the other person, inside you.

We are in an imperfect world, with imperfect people, (including me) and there will be hurt and pain while we are here, But there is hope for us in a life changed within us.  "To them God has chosen to make known... this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory... To this end I contend with all the energy Christ... works in me." (Colossians 1: 27-29).  It's never over, but there's always hope...

The nights of staying awake, and feeling so broken up inside, not knowing where to go, or what to do, crying out for a miracle, God was beginning inside of me.

I know all the stories of the miracles that happened in the bible, but God was making them become more than stories to me. He was, He is, and always will be the same God, ALIVE and powerful inside me, in Spirit. He was bringing me to a better understanding of His living word.  If Christ gave Himself for me to live, I didn't want to waste another day letting the enemy tear me apart. I wanted to know Jesus more, and more. His joy, His peace, how He handled hurt and suffering that came from others, and not of himself.  "I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who gave Himself for me." (Galatians 2:20).  

He opened my eyes more, and more each day. He was fixing my heart, and setting me free, because I didn't want to think, or be the way I was before.

He gave me something to believe in, something worth fighting for, something I can't ignore...  I needed to change, and have faith in Him, with guiding me to be all He wants me to be in every area of my life. "I no longer live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God..."

I pray we all come to realize, change is an inner choice that can Set you Free !!!!

Kim


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