Truth is, we could shake our fist at God, kick ,cry, and scream at the things we are in wonder about. He still loves us. I have never known such a love as His. I have been blessed with the most wonderful parents, but still, His love is the most comforting. Even though I can’t see Him, I can feel Him. If we just trust Him, He will bring rest to our mind and soul like no one else can.
I often wonder why God took my husband home not long after he surrendered his life to Jesus. He came to realize what it meant to have a relationship with Him, and he wanted it. Just because you become a child of God through this relationship, doesn’t mean you still won’t struggle with weaknesses that are being broken from the old nature. We are not perfect, but we are being made perfect. God knows how much we are going to allow Him to change us from our old selves to the new. Our lives are a testimony to all He is doing in, and through us. He gives us time and many chances. I, and my husband, if he was still here to tell you, would tell you that God is a very patient God. I asked my husband many times if he blamed God, or was mad at God for having cancer again, and he said no with all sincerity!
I had so many dreams of serving the Lord together with my husband, but God saw something in my future that I don’t see. I know one day He will show me. Isaiah 55: 8-9, Whatever it is, I will trust in His word. His ways are higher, and His plans are always good. Even if I don’t see it clearly yet, or understand it. I have to let go of my dreams, and lay each one of them at His feet. I don’t have any guilt talking openly to God about how I don’t like it. I can tell you, that by doing this, it has brought me to a better understanding, love, and trust in Him, that is hard to explain unless you have experienced great pain and grief.
What God sees in our future, never changes. He knows what tomorrow will bring, because there’s not a day ahead that He has not seen, or stood Himself. From the day we are born, until the day we die, He knows every mountain we will face, and He is always by our side. So when God doesn’t move the mountains, or part the waters , or give us an answer as we cry out to Him, there is really no other choice than to trust in His plan. Romans 8: 28, I believe with all my heart that He works all things out for the good for those who trust Him.
He has a purpose that we may not see while we are in our wondering. But if you constantly seek Him, talk to Him, cry out to Him… you will see that He is your strength, your comfort, the steady hand and firm foundation, the rock on which you will stand.
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Kim
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