The lyrics of this song really hit me because it has been what I've been going through for a while now, and I am going to be open and honest with you. Most of you know that I am head-over-heels in love with Jesus and a Christian. But there has been something rooted in me that God has been trying to show me for a long long time. Because of what we are going through right now, has brought up that bitter root of anger, and revenge. Now, I can hold onto who I am and not let him change me from the inside, but that just keeps me right where I'm at. Quite honestly, I don't like it. Making excuses for how I feel, like it's OK to want to see these rioters hurt real bad. I don't even want to put into words how I feel about revenge for these innocent people. But the horrible thing about it, is God told me I'm no better than they are with what's in my heart. Wow!!!! Romans 12: 18-19.... Matthew 5:44... Revenge is mine says the Lord.... Do not repay evil with evil.... Pray for your enemies.... When I look at the police and see them standing there with people screaming in their face and taunting them, I thought of Jesus. How he stood there, and got spit at in His face. Thorns pressed into His head, beaten and crucified and innocent! I use the excuse that I'm human and God understands me. But honestly that's not an excuse when God wants to take you to a deeper level with him, and I pursue after that daily. Well I wasn't going to go deeper so long as this was in my heart and I didn't really recognize how ugly it was to God. I know what all of you might be saying.... Oh Kim, your human, God understands and so on... But I know that so long as I have life, God is continually creating the image of Jesus in all of us who call ourselves His. Well I have been failing this part since Calambine high school shooting years ago, World Trade Center, and all that is going on now. Yes I'm going to get mad. That is impossible not to. But what was in my heart is not good at all, and it drew me to repentance and the peace that I desire to have when I sit in my prayer Room with my Lord. I hope this helps someone else who is stuck feeling distant from God and not knowing why. He calls us all higher and deeper.
All for You my Jesus
Kim D
This is beautiful Kim & something we all need ....It is very hard to do when you see & hear all the hate going on in this world, but the reality is, we are all part of that hate... I pray that God disciplines us and helps us to see what he wants us to see with a heart & mind like his....Thanks sis,your a Blessing... God is certainly using you, I love you������
ReplyDeleteThank you sis. HES taking us higher.
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